"With the help of my strong faith, family and prayer-warriors, I was able to stay positive throughout my cancer journey. I told myself ― ‘No, ovarian cancer is not going to be in my body. I will not have ovarian cancer,’ and I was determined that I would remain strong throughout the journey.
It was depressing to see my hair starting to come out in lumps. Before it became an unsightly mess, I said to my husband, ‘Brian, it’s time. I’ve got to get my head shaved to remove what is left of my hair.’ I went to my hairdresser, who I go to church with, and she asked me, ‘Are you sure about this?’ I said, ‘Yes, I’m sure.’ She turned me around, so I wouldn’t have to watch. I felt like I was about to fall apart. This was one of the hardest things for me. I loved my hair. As she started shaving my head, Christian music began to play. The song that came on kept repeating, ‘You are so beautiful. You are so beautiful.’ I turned around in shock to look at Brian and felt this incredible peace. I knew I was going to be OK.
I never looked back. The peace of that moment instilled in me that I am beautiful inside and out. A month later, I joined my daughter on a photo shoot, and the photographer insisted that I be photographed as well. I felt absolutely beautiful taking that photo. It was all about inner strength and knowing that this is who I am and represented everything I was going through.
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