On the drive home, he asked me, “Bubba, what’s the scariest thing you’ve ever done?”
I had to be honest with him: I told him it was the surgery I’d just gone through and proton therapy. It was really fear of the unknown. With cancer, I wasn’t in control, and I didn’t know what was going to happen.
My spinal cord ependymoma diagnosis
Let me rewind to where it all started: In October 2016, I flew to New York City for work. When I landed, I had some lower back pain, but I didn’t think anything of it. I went to my hotel, had dinner and went to sleep. Around 4 a.m., I woke up in a cold sweat with excruciating pain. At first, I thought I’d pinched a nerve and that it would go away. After an hour, I was still in pain and went to the ER, where I was diagnosed with a pulled back muscle.
Back home a few days later, I went to my primary care physician. An MRI revealed a 4-centimeter mass inside my spinal cord.
Everything around me stopped when I got that diagnosis. It felt as if my stomach, heart and mind had dropped out of my body. I immediately thought it was cancer and knew the road ahead was going to be a battle.
My first visit to MD Anderson
I was raised in Lake Jackson, just south of Houston, where everyone knows MD Anderson is the best place in the world for cancer treatment. I immediately called for an appointment. The next day I learned neurosurgeon Claudio Tatsui, M.D., had accepted my case and wanted to see me in MD Anderson’sBrain and Spine Center ASAP.
After meeting Dr. Tatsui and his advanced practice nurse Marilou Oro, I felt relieved. My health and life were in the best possible hands.
I asked Dr. Tatsui about the potential outcomes, the recovery, the “what if” scenarios, the best case, the worst case and the alternatives. I think I asked every question in the book, and he answered every single one. The next week, I had test after test, MRIs, blood work and so on. I felt like a pincushion but knew it was worth it.
Get that bad boy out: My ependymoma surgery
My surgery was scheduled for Dec. 6, 2016. The night before, I tossed and turned, prayed, wrote letters to my family and counted down the minutes.
The surgery took eight hours. Dr. Tatsui successfully removed my spinal cord tumor, which turned out to be a grade I myxopapillary ependymoma.
When I woke up, I moved all my fingers and toes, thanked God and rejoiced for being alive, healthy, happy -- and a little loopy, thanks to the medicine. I stayed in the hospital to recover for about a week, and the staff provided the best possible customer and patient service I had ever experienced.
Phase II of my ependymoma treatment: proton therapy
Going into proton therapy, I didn’t know what to think. I’d heard stories of people being tired or getting sick. My radiation oncologist Andrew Bishop, M.D., put together a 30-treatment plan (five days a week for six weeks) to kill off any remaining cancer cells.
My first day of proton therapy was Jan. 23, 2017. That’s when radiation therapists Danna and Kristoffer stepped into my life. I was nervous, anxious and out of my comfort zone, but Danna and Kristoffer were rock stars. Once again I felt like I was in the right hands. Later I met Sally, Ashlee, Denice and Bette. Everyone on my team made me feel like I was family and that they were on this journey with me.
Thankfully, I did not experience any side effects. After finishing treatment, I was relieved and at peace. My first post-treatment scan was clear, with no evidence of disease.
Don’t be afraid
So, back to my brother’s original question: What’s the scariest thing you’ve ever done? If I could go back today and talk to myself before surgery and treatment, I would say:
Don’t be afraid. You’re in the best place in the world with the brightest people in the world.
The people at MD Anderson are going to treat you like family. They will be with you every step of the way.
Have faith. Life is a journey, and not all things go according to plan.
Live life to the fullest. No matter the outcome, be happy and live life as if tomorrow will be your last day. Nothing is promised, and you should not take it for granted.